OK, in 3 hours I meet with financial aid, and then tomorrow I meet with the dean of my school. Today will decide more than tomorrow but the dean's a very comforting person and gives good advice.

I didn't post yesterday cause I felt too shitty to come to the library. Oh well. That also means I got no paper written.

I think it's mildly hilarious that I just happened to get this news on the Friday of a 3-day weekend so that I could reach no offices to get information from them, and all the people that would really be key to talk to (hi Pauly) just happened to be going out of town unreachably, and that's partly why I've sounded so stressed in the last posts (ok doug, deep breaths). So I just got to sit and stew about this for several days.

But in those days I realized:
1) I can't do a full schedule.
2) Even a half-schedule would be very difficult.
3) I CAN'T move back with my parents. Yikes!

That's where I'm left. One sister suggested I ask another, naturally-out-of-the-country-and-unreachable sister if I could move into her mansion for a while. (She's a nanny, not a millionaire.) I think that could be possible, but I have to wait until she's back to ask if I can borrow a suite of rooms. Hehe. Just until I get things figured out. This is if I come back of course.

I think I will not go to Portuguese tonight, since I know I'm gonna drop classes, and that's gonna be the first to go. Good, cause that was 3 hours and tonight we had to debate the presidency of Lula. Which would be interesting but I don't feel like doing it.

I have a potential Pashto tutor if I move home; if I stay here I am still looking but my terrorist housemate will tutor me in arabic script which will speed things along. (oh, so the other night she comes home wearing all black, this is the palestinian one, and she's boughten this black face mask for biking in the cold, puts that on, and then she puts on her palestinian-thing, you know, the black and white thing, around her neck, and my other roommate and i just start cracking up. she responds, yeah, i know, all i need is a kalashnikov, huh? so i took a picture of her, and when i was taking it i realized she's standing in front of the huge palestinian flag we have hanging in our window. haha. her friend offered to superimpose a rifle into the photo. then she went and tried to flag down a cab looking like this. it will be awkward if she's around dressed like that when the state dept comes to background-check my other roommate. just slightly.)

If I stay here i COULD couch-jump for the rest of the semester, I've got a place in falls church for a while and of course my own house's couch for a while (E will take over my room as soon as I move out though), and i'm sure I could find others...but that wouldn't be fun for a whole 6 months, better to have some permanency at least. Especially being sick if I just want to stay in bed all day I'm not going to be as welcome of a living-room guest. But rent is so high out here I don't know where I could stay if I wasn't in school (ie getting school loans and whatnot).

Moving to MN also removes me from my doctors who have been very helpful to me. So, not good on that end.

That's basically where I'm at. I think what I would like to do is take a leave and stay out here, but with Washington rent, that's a no-go. Decisions. (Paul wow I bet you're SOOOOOOOO glad you're out in the middle of the wilderness and not on the phone with me for all this!!! Bridget gets me instead.)

Haha and I told E I would get up and run with her at 730 this morning. Yeah right. I didnt have class til 9, I wasn't out of bed before 845.

Sorry these recent posts have been so disorganized, and I will post more fun topics soon. So don't everybody leave me. But now I have to go to lunch to hear why Lula is a bad president (I promised I would remain open-minded).

Oh, and Doug, apparently only the crappy yoga teacher is at our school this semester.